mh?, executive dysfunction
This morning I was so exhausted I could barely stand up. Like, legit spending several seconds trying to muster the energy to get on my feet while my daughter is pulling on my arm asking to go somewhere else.
This afternoon I cleaned out her closet and rearranged her room, bringing several large playsets from downstairs and setting them up where she could use them.
...did I just have a manic episode? Is that what that is?
coping with grief, emotional gut-punch
In retrospect, it makes sense that it would happen while I was away. My roommate was keeping an eye on nosimpleprotege while I went grocery shopping. "Papa went to-ah store," she reminded herself. "Grown-ups come back," she added.
And turned to my roommate. "Mama, where?"
Oh hey, my driver's license. I've been driving around for two weeks with the expired one in my wallet waiting for this to show up, and it's been here for over a month.
In a pile of mail set aside while I dealt with all the, ahem, other things I had to deal with in September.
One less thing to worry about is always nice.
parenting, coping with grief, bittersweet triumphs
nosimpleprotege was eating dinner and told me, "Go-a potty."
So we got up and went to potty. She peed at home for the first time! The ability to feel that she needed to go and tell someone in tine was the part we needed to work on, and tonight she got it!
The "your mom would be so proud of you" moments are the hardest.
coping with grief, extreme mh-, eye thing
"God, this bit of grit has been in my eye for over half an hour, would it get out already I have shit to do"
"Oh right, my wife is dead, my daughter doesn't understand and won't for years to come, to the point that she expects her mom to walk through the door any minute now, there's no way I can parent her by myself, and the people who swore they'd help with anything no matter what are leaving me on read."
"Okay, that handles my eye, back to work."
a parent too late, a widower too soon. he/him
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